Almost the end of Elementary School

So Over the weekend I took Hailee dress shopping.... I cant believe in a month she will be out of Elementary and in to Junior High in August, she is graduating in June from 6th grade and wanted to go dress shopping for that one special dress for that day so off to the mall we went.... If anyone knows me knows that I HATE the mall so you dont see me there that much, I avoid that place as much as possible. Hailee found the dress she wanted and the over jacket or whatever you call it that goes over it :-\, now on with the shoes and the leggins or whatever she wants to wear under it. I just still cant believe that I wont have an elementary school student anymore soon. Seems like yesterday that I was taking her to Kindergarten and picking her up and now she is going to have 7 classes a day UGH! this momma isn't handling it very well I am not sure as to why but I guess maybe because she is my one and only so she is my life... She dont depend on me anymore for anything, she can do it all on her own type of thing now... my goodness it kinda stinks... I almost feel lost. A little confused and alone on what to do and where to go like she has her own life and I have mine only we live under the same roof and that is all. it is all so weird to me.

WOW!!!!!!

You see this kid? she is AMAZING!!! she is always accomplishing everything she is given. I am soooooo proud of her! this last year was a great year, she graduated from D.A.R.E. even did a talk. I will have to see about the video and I know I have pictures on here of that so I will post them and then she also got a reward in a stock market game that she was playing that is the picture from above :-) just everytime I turn around she makes me smile and a proud momma. we got through the year happy and healthy as always, she is ready for the 7th grade as she has already gotten her shots for it.. she didn't like me very much for it but she lived.

Last week or the week before Hailee registered for the 7th grade :-(, yep it is official, she is going to junior high this next year, her birthday is in a couple of months and she will be 12 years old. I am happy but sad all at once, my baby is growing and getting so big I can't even take it all in but at the same time she is so beautiful and so mature and I am happy that I have raised her the way that I have raised her. Hailee is very responsible and trusting, I never have to worry about her and think that she isn't ok because I know that she is.

Ok on with us, yes this is a blog about both of us so here it is, as you can see she is a mini me pretty much, not that it is a bad thing at all but it could be I guess... hahaha.
the picture with her hair all curly is back when she was getting an award almost a year ago and the christmas tree picture was taken in December on 2012 so a few months ago well I am wearing 2 inch heels in that picture and she is in flats... UGH!!! her doctor said that she will grow for 2 more years and that she WILL be taller then I am :-\ (im only 5'4") yep I am short... lol. my health has been ok so far, I haven't had any recent surgeries or probelms my diabetes has been ok they go up and down but I think that is likely I watch what I eat always and I am staying active.  Recently I lost a few people in my life that mattered to me and that was hard along with my dads death anniversary, his birthday, and my brothers birthday(who is also gone) it has been a tough year this year but I am determined to get through it with one stroke at a time and day by day, with my family and very close friends in my life I know that I can get through it all it is just tough for a minute but hey what life isn't? and if life wasn't tough then how could we manage an easy life? Remember it is all about jouney! live life to the fullest because we never know when it is our time.

Another year down!!!

This school year is at an end. Hailee celebrated her 11th birthday yesterday, her party is Tomorrow, she is growing up so much I have a hard time with how much my baby is getting so big and going through all the life changed that a young womem goes through. I love to see her grow but not as fast as it is going... she is so beautiful and looks a lot like me (not sure if its good or bad) but I will take that how I want and go with it... haha. Next year she will be going into the SIXTH grade.... ugh almost to junior high :( either I am getting old or she is catching up to me ( in more ways than one). I know in life she will be wanting more expensive things and money for this and money for that but for now I am glad that I can go to a cheap store and get her something and she is completely fine with it.... I am still having a hard time trying to come to the fact that my baby is growing up and going to be out of elementary soon. I remember yesterday when she was in kindergarten and I thought that day killed me... but i think this day kills me even more, I dont want her to be so big and so independent.... I love you baby girl!!! always and forever!!!

~*~* June*~*~

I am feeling a little color to this one... I have gotten Hailee's birthday party out of the way and she is an offical 10 yr old... goodness really I am feeling a bit on the older side having a pre teen now and actually she acts more like a teenager then her actual age which could make things a little hard but for the most part she is a great child and helps me with all kinds of things, yes I guess at times it is with a grudge but for the most part she is a big help to me... It is summer break for her and she is a little on the bored side already but not to bad.. we will see as the days go on I guess.  It was a very crazy month last month, a lot of things happened that I am not sure to really get it involved here or even talk about them, I am not wanting to make anyone upset at me so yeah I guess it is better that I dont talk about them here and besides I never know who reads this and will tell certain people that I have posted something bad.. oh well it is ok I guess anyway as summer moves on and I kinda am as well I dont know how anything will turn out for me I am pretty stressed about things right now and worried that I am not providing enough for Hailee... it just seems like everytime I thought things were going to be ok they turn into crap and find myself falling backwards again, all I want and am trying to do is get ahead and be a good roll model for Hailee, we will see how things turn out for sure I guess.... my medical is not the greatest at the moment and stress.... yes I have a lot of that, I am taking new medication and I dont know as if it is working like the doctor wants it to work but I am trying it for now and we will see what it holds for me... I am taking walks as often as possible to try and get something done with this weight but that dont seem to be doing well either.... I guess I was born to be fat and either I have to find someone that wants a fat person or I be alone and you know since I am not looking for anyone I guess the being alone and being fat is ok with me I dont know what else to do about my weight, I have been trying everything and nothing seems to be helping at all... UGH soooo irratating!!   Ok I guess that is enough for now...

Life

I haven't been here for a few months... Life is crazy and gets control of me.  I am currently planning for Hailee's  10th birthday... I cant believe she will be 10 in a week... boy how time flies...  I am living in my own place and making everything work, yes of course I struggle but who don't? I pay my bills and have food in our mouths so that is all that matters... I am very blessed and greatful to have the things I have in life right now even though it tends to be out of control and gets the best of me at times but over all it is good.  I would also like to thank all my family and friends that I have and have done nothing but  support me in all that has been going on, without all your support I wouldnt be where I am today... I love you all very much, please know that each of you have a special place in my heart.. last but not least I would like to tell my daughter how much I love her and how much she means to me, Hailee, you are a wonderful person, without you in my life I wouldnt know where I would be and how my life would have turned out, I am thinkful that I was able to not only be a mom but to me your mom! you bring me so much pride and joy everyday and I cant thank you enough for it all.

Christmas

Christmas this year wont be the same as I have had them in the past.  being a single mom and doing most everything on my own has been tough but some what worth it to me... I dont have to answer to anyone and dont have to tell anyone what I am doing and where I am going.  I have had many struggles in life but I have always managed to make it through all the tough times and moved on and picked myself back up from it all.  I am thankful for my daughter who has been the best child anyone can ever ask for and has been there with me through all our tough times in life.  Hailee is in the 4th grade and is doing wonderful in school, she is tall and as beautiful as ever! I want to also thank my family, they have been there for me through all the good and bad times and for sure through the hard ones... I want to also thanks all the friends that I have, they have also been a big support of mine. I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and I wonderful New Year!

Hello

So, I have been through alot the past few years, it has kinda made me stronger but it has also brought me down. I have a wonderful daughter that is 9 yrs. old.  I work full time and raise my daughter, I am a single mom and I can't have anymore children. I was married at 16, went through a divorce and then married again and now going through another divorce.  things for me have been HELL literally, I had 3 surgeries in less then 2 years and I am most likely going to have to have another 2 on my wrists.  I try and live life to the fullest and not let to many things stop me but there are always road blocks and things that we just can not get around.  I am currently looking for an apartment to rent for my daughter and I.